SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT

No good outcomes -

Stuck in between.

Visible unseen.

I feel like I am becoming ghost...

Leave me be - don't help me.

Hopeless case in this fucked up hole.

Not very fond of life without you,

But I'll continue - 

surviving on spite and slither of hope.

Kind of sick of doing the same things over and over,

and getting slightly different results.

Kid between dumb and evil adults.

But it's all I ever knew.

Same old on repeat, 

nothing new.

How to make peace with it - 

the fact, that both facts and feelings don't mean shit.

Drowning in the hate, ignorance and idiocy they spew.

Oversensitive or numb - switching between the two.

And now all I thought I was, changed because of you.

Who the fuck am I? What am I to do?

This existence is too much and not enough.

Head full of nonsense -

more lost with every sentence...

No clue where I'll be in a week or month,

but you can be sure it'll be with her on my mind.