More it hurts more I learn

All the reasons I've had,
all the excuses I've made.
this all made me believe
I am alone
Be lost isn't that bad,
when the good will just fade,
'cause this all made me leave.
I am gone.

I used to run away from it.
from my hopeful dream,
'cause comfort of sadness
was bearable.
But now I'm stuck in a pit.
I can't swim with this stream
and this turning into madness
is terrible.

How could I win
when I know there's no winning?
When people around me are blind?
If none sees it,
then noone can help me
and I will stay forever lost.
How could I win
when there's no beginning?
When people around me are deaf?
If noone hears it,
then noone can help me
and I will stay forever lost.

Maybe my path isn't good
maybe it will kill me
but now I know
how to fight.
'Cause I'm starting to understood
that this will save me
I need to grow
and stay in light.

More it hurts more I learn